Saturday, November 29, 2008

Remembering my dear Mother .......

Been three weeks since my mother passed away. I missed her tremendously. Its like theres a kind of emptiness within me, within the house. Every spots reminded me of her, her bedroom, her chair, places where she used to sit, right down to every little things. My regret is that I was not able to spend more time with her, even from the time I was growing up. In the early days I was off to a boarding school when I was thirteen yrs old, then to college, and then to an away working life. The only time spent with her during those times were school holidays,monthly visits and vacations. Its only since March last year that I decided to come home and stay with her.I am glad that fate has played a hand and that I was able to be with her till her last days. Or I wouldnt have forgiven myself for being so selfish.

Looking back, at how difficult it must have been for her, being a single parent after my father passed away. She did the best she could in her own way. And I couldnt thank her enough. Nothing in this world would measure up to all her hard work and sacrifices. Its only when I started working that I managed to ease away her burden.
But I still wish that I would have done for more her. I feel as if I havent thanked nor repay her enough. Although everybody knew that she was happy when I finally came home to stay. Thats the only consolation that I have, that I was able to care for her personally towards the end.

What I have now is only memories to treasure. Snippets of life, like a reel of films playing in my head.
Her presence will always stay in my heart and in my prayer every single day.

15 comments:

Notorious said...

Hello
a7sn alla 3zakom,, Am sooo sorry for ur loss and am sorry that we had to meet in such bad circumstances
However, I must say am happy that u came back to her finally at least u stayed with her in her final days I didn’t have the chance and I’ve always regret the timing ,, sorry again for ur loss

Mahmood Al-Yousif said...

My deepest condolences.

Dubai Guy said...

May God give you more patience & courage to bear this loss. May her soul rest in peace.

Mrs Dynamite aka Lorena +Wonder Women... said...

Habibty !! I have tear on my eyes just finish your post Im REALLY REALLY SORRY of your lost , I will pray el fatha for your mom inshallah tonight before i go to bed ,, (((HUGS))Im really really sorry..May allah help you and fill your heart sister ! lost of love

Lorena

Munther said...

my sincere condolences..

Mrs Dynamite aka Lorena +Wonder Women... said...

Amontie .. i know is not a time to celebrate for you now but I just want to wish you eid mubarak , Hopping that you are doing fine .. Hugs

Lorena

Shionge said...

Dearest Pal, I am sorry to hear this but my deepest condolence to you. She'll always remain in your heart.

Zaidin said...

Min....i tk tau mak u dh meninggal sampai hari ni bila i baca blog u ni. U pun tk bagi tau, kan u ada no fon i? tp i fhm dlm situasi mcm tu u tentu tk ingat apa2 lagi. Apa pun i ucap takziah kat u, semoga u tabah menghadapi semua dugaan Tuhan. Iring kan doa untuk mak u semoga rohnya ditempatkan di sini roh orang2 yg beriman. Sabar Min, sabar bebanyak....Do keep in touch ok??

Ammoontie said...

Dear Notorious,
Thank you for your kind wishes. I missed my mum but we do have to move on. Being with her during her final days were sort of a gift. I am glad I had that opportunity.

Ammoontie said...

Dear Mr Mahmood,
Thank you for your condolences.

Ammoontie said...

Dear Dubai Guy,
Having lost my mom, sort of reminding me how fragile life is.
May her soul rest in peace.

Ammoontie said...

Dear sis Lorena,
Actually I missed you..!
Thank you for your kind wishes.
May Allah Bless you and your family.

Ammoontie said...

Hi Munther,
Where have you been missing ? Anyway thank you for your kind wishes.

Ammoontie said...

Dear Shionge,
Thank you for kind wishes.

Ammoontie said...

Dear Zaidin,
Sorry for not being able to get in touch with you much earlier. Hope you understand. Certainly will keep in touch again, Insyaallah.